Me, Myself and My Attitude

My attitude, never let me fall in love. I could never understand this stupid act. What finding ‘True’ love takes? Nothing, but time, lot. Time is proportional to the kind of love. I realized. I never had the time. Not true. I was too lazy. Perfect. I could never convince myself spending time on this. There was this most beautiful girl; I met at my college railway station. I couldn’t take my eye off her. She’s the most beautiful girl I ever met in my life so far. I figured she comes to the station 0815 sharp. Well I tried, she smiled. But 0815 consistency was too big a task and easy to give up. It’s hard – forgetting the girl but 0815 was harder or may be hardest.

I never followed but was followed. People say that’s the attitude. Change it. You’ll never find love. I can never for my attitude is what I’m. Did you count the ‘I’? That’s dominance and that’s attitude. I started liking it. I started liking myself. You have to for you are the only one. Am I ashamed? Oh, never. I boost of it. Yeah, I can cover up and act good. Why bother? People will hate, who cares! How many think of soda as gas contained in a liquid contained in solid? That’s complex thinking. Well I like it this way.

Girls, the topic of most guys interest. I talk too much girls. I do, I hate them. I talk to hate them. I say they are gorgeous to hate them. Why hate them? For I haven’t got one to love, so I hate them all - Could be. I don’t see what I’m looking for! What am I looking for? Its complex, most won’t agree with me. A career oriented, independent, not in look out for a guy to lead her life but won’t mind a guy in her life. The inner meanings of all are the same. There are lots of deceptions roaming around. I got deceived couple of times. From the very small percentage of this rare individuals, finding one is real hard. But I like to succeed in this. Again, I’m not on the look out but won’t mind one.

Who writes something like this - I do. Will someone care to understand or even read after first two words? I doubt, but then, I don’t care. May be my soul mate will…

End is Abrupt...

All he could hear was the ambulance’s sirens. He knew he was in it but what he wanted to know was the destination – Heaven or Hell? He preferred Earth though. He had whole life waiting for him, he can’t die. God has never been so cruel to him and he’ll never be. He could feel one of his important organ is missing, but couldn’t figure out which one. He felt as if he was unconsciously conscious.

Life had been very easy for him. He really didn’t have to struggle much for he was happy about what he got. A mischievous school life ended with a good academic record, good enough to put him in the best of the universities. Then a playful college life earned him a good job in a reputed concern and also the love of his life, Shalini. Vijay was quite contented.

He proposed and she accepted to his surprise for she hardly knew him. This even scared him as he was afraid the relationship won’t last. But it was as smooth as his life so far. After three years of their college, they informed parents. Both the parents were considerate and no surprises here too. Marriage was fixed on Jan 24th, the day he proposed to her. It was like a dream life he was living for he had always heard other people cribbing about their life. He felt he got all he desired. Sometimes he even wondered whether he deserved them all.

That day, Vijay called her asking her out for shopping. After the engagement, they could hardly meet. He felt like meeting her that day, so he made up the shopping thing. He picked her up from her office in his bike, another darling. The best time he ever had was when he had both his darlings together. After some shopping at the mall, they sat in the couch of their favorite coffee shop. They had spent long hours in the same couch. Chatting about everything that existed and everything that they wish existed. Not only the onlookers but the lovers themselves wonder sometimes how they could ever speak for such long hours staring at each other. After the coffee, he dropped her home. On his way back home, he felt he was the happiest man on the world.

Just then, from no where, the truck came and hit him from behind. He had no clue what happened. He felt the pain for one tenth of a millisecond before he became unconscious. Then, he could hear the siren of the ambulance. At the hospital, he could see Shalini crying loud, his parents, her parents, everyone was crying. Then he realized he was dead. It’s all over so abruptly. When your life goes as desired, means God had his math all wrong and to correct that, he rubs off the entire calculation abruptly.